Words: Holmquist
Music: Oesau
Summer, 2006

I'm a wall that stops the flow
I'm the distance I won't go
In the times I'm worth my height
Don't have the words to make it right

Can you feel, can you feel the way I do?
Is the course, is the course displacing you?
Isn't love, isn't love good enough?
Isn't love, isn't love good enough?

I control the things I feel.  With my friends I try to deal
For the things that I've done wrong, I'll make up by singing songs
I'm a wall that finds no rest.  No comfort found in being blessed
In your thoughts I will remain, in the reservoir contained

Can you feel, can you feel the way I do?
Is the course, is the course displacing you?
Isn't love, isn't love good enough?
Isn't love, isn't love good enough?

I'm a wall that stops the flow
I'm the distance I won't go
In your thoughts I will remain
In the reservoir contained

Can you feel, can you feel the way I do?
Is the course, is the course displacing you?
Isn't love, isn't love good enough?
Isn't love, isn't love good enough?

Words/Music: Oesau

What's that sound?
There's nobody around
it's in my head
A thousand thoughts unsaid

what's that sound I hear?
Or have I lost my mind?
The meaning isn't clear
Saw tooth, square, and sine

I lie awake
my head a sphere of ache
Still it howls
cacophony of vowels

Try to sleep
and count the bleating sheep
Sleep won't come,
there's only ceaseless hum

What's that sound I hear?
Or have I lost my mind?
The meaning isn't clear
Saw tooth, square, and sine

This buzzy whine
has got to be a sign
that I am lost
and now must pay the cost

What's that sound I hear?
Or have I lost my mind?
The meaning isn't clear
Saw tooth, square, and sine
What's that sound I hear?
Or have I lost my mind?
The meaning isn't clear
Saw tooth, square, and sine

Words/Music: Holmquist
Autumn, 2005

Spring
Over the road, leaves are growing now
Shading my sight from what I know
Out on the road, leaving's not avow
Where would I be if not with her?

And so
She will be the record of your constancy
[Hear her sighing now]
"Don't leave me"
You know I'm not a fraud
"Don't leave me"

Summer
Over the road, leaves are languishing
Wishing the sky would open up
Out on the road, leaving seems so near
Barter the time you've totaled up

And now
She will be the record of your truancy
[Hear her calling out]
"Don't leave me"
You know I'm not a lout
"Don't leave me"

Autumn
Over the road, leaves are falling down
Paving the way away from her
Out on the road, leaving makes such sense
Where would I be if not with her?

Not with her

And now
She will be the record of your frequency
[Hear her screaming out]
"Don't leave me"
You know I'm not alone
"Don't leave me"

Winter
Over the road, leaves are absent now
I wish I hadn't moved along
Out on the road, leaving wasn't right
What do have I to offer now?

Not with her

And now
She will be the record of your absentcy
[Now you're showing doubt]
"Don't leave me"
I know I'm not allowed
"Don't leave me"

Words: Holmquist
Music: Holmquist/Oesau
Winter, 2005

She said she left a note

It regards to what
She said

She said she'd had enough
She left her home
She went alone

In the garden walk
She said...

"I'm coming home"

She's sad, but in control
She wept alone
She left a note

"With regards to whom
It concerns:

I'm coming home
It took me years to find my way out
I'm here by myself"

Go!
Since we met
My regret
Is that I couldn't too
So, I
Resolve

Words: Holmquist
Music: eg
Winter, 2008

What will make this easier for you?
Haven't I done enough?
Where do you see this going for you?
To live outside of love?

Scraping away the sins of the day
Contending with your words
Believing yourself when your name is a lie
Isn't that absurd?
Fooling yourself that your fears are outside
Do you need me to pretend?

Can I care to comfort you when
It's easy to pretend
The only thing I've gotten from you
Is nothing more than "friends"?

Wasting away in palatial estates
Created by your world
Becoming again.  All the time you pretend
That you're any other girl
Keeping me here against all of your tears
Do you need me to pretend?

This what you can expect now
This isn't just a trend
I'll not be a party to the party that
Asks me to befriend
The woman I love, no other above
Who needs me to pretend.

Ignoring the things and the night that it brings
There isn't any way
Complicit in me and your need to be free
That'll get me through the day
Scraping away the sins of the day
Contending with your words
Believing yourself when your name is a lie
Isn't that absurd?
I'm wasting my time on a girl that I find
Doesn't find me as enough
So go your own way.  So now go away
Because I can't pretend.

Words/Music: Oesau
Autumn, 2005

I want to know that you will always show everything that
That you are
And I'll show you everything too and we'll be fine
All the time

Don't apologize for anything you've done.
You don't ever have to be sorry.
We will kick this sickness and stand out in the sun.
And together we will stand always.

I want to see that you will always be here by my side
To ease my mind
And help me to not be such a fool I've spent so long
Being wrong.

Always is never as long as it should be.
Never.

I want to know that you will always show everything that
That you are

Don't apologize for anything you've done.
You don't ever have to be sorry.
We will kick this sickness and stand out in the sun.
And together we will stand always.

Let your hair fall down and put your hand in mine
You don't ever have to be lonely.
We will face the darkness together unafraid
And tomorrow we will be newborn.

Words/Music: Holmquist
Autumn, 2005

Why don't you write me a letter?
Why don't I give you a call?
Why don't we say what we mean?
Or anything at all?

Why don't you tell me you love me?
‘Cause I don't know what you mean
When I see you passing by
The spaces in between

But if you will humor me
I'm not as smart as I seem to me
If you will stay with me
You'll know what you mean (to me)

The longer I know you the better
The dearer your presence to me
The nearer the chance of losing you
By waiting patiently

If you will humor me
I've got this great idea
If you will, then I will
Clichéd so happily

Did I tell you I love you?
Did I tell you I care?
If I did, I mean it still
Tomorrow's everywhere

Words/Music: Oesau
Winter, 2007

Two figures come into frame
The mise-en-scène dark and strange
He's confident, strong, and tall
She's timid, fragile, and small

The movie flickers
The scene unfurls again
The hero saves her
The credits roll

Immersing her in his arms
He steals her away from harm
She gazes into his eyes
The soundtrack cues love’s reprise

The movie flickers
The scene unfurls again
The hero saves her
The credits roll

The movie renders and will remember
Our same celluloid lament

And so ends the story arc
We finish up where we start
Two figures now fill the frame
The mise-en-scène stark and plain

The movie flickers
The scene unfurls again
The hero saves her
The credits roll

This isn't fiction
and I can't save you this time
I need direction
But there’s no take two

Music: Oesau
Words: Holmquist
Fall, 2007

Here I am and
I'm alone again
Where are you and
What's the plan again?

Hold my hand out
For a hand out and
I'm aware that
Space is all you give

Don't you listen to the whisper.

Say his name and
Curse a fine amend (amen?)
Where was he when
I had to repent?

Lift a garter
Steal the soul of it
Retrace sins of
Lives too early spent

Can you listen to my silence?
Don't you listen?

Call the walls out
And leave the pain
Where are you when
There's no one to blame

Say my name and
Cause a fire with it
Take it home and
Stay awake with it

Stay awake with it

Don't you listen to the whisper.
Don't you listen to the pain there.
Don't you listen?  You're not with him.

Music: eg
Words: Holmquist
Summer, 2006

And she walks through her days
With her sly, unhurried pace
So she walks while I wait
And oblivious I remain

"We don't talk," I hear her claim
With that smile she says my name
So we talk and I wait
And remind her why she can't be heard

All I know now, I should go now
As she wanders through her days
I find I'm getting stronger
With the knowledge that I wait
And she knows nothing of it

To the coast, I will aim
In the center, I'll remain
Captured thoughts that I retain
While my freedom betrays me